I.
THIS
VICE I CANNOT HAVE ESCAPED*
Sometimes
in our lives we are given access to the equivalency
of a
Hyatt Regency, you know, just for a night or two. And that is that.
A
decorative pastel melon ball bestowed upon our pillow one morning
to be followed
only by the crushed orbital residues of its mushy pith
on all
those thereafter.
And still,
etiquette prescribes that the bulk of our transactions be carried out
as if born
strictly from complex personal indiscretions, pursued via means
of a
long series of courtesy removal forms, generally accompanied
by disingenuous
requests for feedback on services rendered.
Every
ninety days, our status is reviewed. And the results of this review
are
always the same. Postponed release. Prolonged confinement.
Another
three-month statutory hit.
The
arm of justice is long. We grant you that. It may not be just,
but
its length is exemplary. A grandiose show of extension and dexterity.
The eyes
of the security apparatus and staff are open. We grant you that.
They
may be neither reliable nor discerning, but they are open, and firmly so.
Oh
brother, are they firm! As if lenses could box and bloody, as well as box in.
In
turn, every measure of our health and welfare has been registered,
we
grant you that. It has not been cared for, but it has been counted.
Tallied
over and over and over again, even if never rallied for.
II.
BECAUSE
WE CAN ALL BUT LOVE THE DEAD
She’s
only the one idea in her head these days, but she sticks to it.
“I
want to become more dangerous to the state,” she relays,
“and
less dangerous to myself, my friends, my lovers, and my community.”
Within
every plutocratic landscape of capitalist repression there are those people
who
manage to escape by outright leaving and those who manage to do so
by
going deeper in, laying hold to its innermost “useless” “unleveraged” “zones”
the
swamp, the dump, the desert, the alley, the abandoned factory,
the
half-constructed tract home, the iridescent tailing ponds.
There’s
something beyond the overwhelming pressure of offgassing that can conjure
forth strange
hatchings, producing something rangier than the usual mop-up
operations,
reaching past regimentation into sponginess.
When
Michel de Montaigne notes, in the 16th century, how “our modern
seamen
have
already all but discovered that it is
not an island,” the all but in his
construction
is not
a peripheral gesture. It is a qualification of consequence. In other words,
the
seamen, in their majority, still do believe themselves to be surrounded by
water,
lapped
at on all sides.
I.e. We
had all but won that round. We had all but come to our senses,
all
but defensively capitulating to a state of permanent negation.
You
had all but risen to the occasion. The two of them
had
all but seen eye to eye. They had all but tried.
Meanwhile,
there he stood before you, all but smiling.
Trying
to, dying to, but all but smiling.
III.
NOW
THE WILDEBEAST IS NOT RUNNING**
They
see in this system their death and so there simply has to be something beyond
it.
They’re
alive after all. They’re stressed out and messed up perhaps, but they’re
definitely
breathing.
“Remember,” someone offers, “that veritable chorus of countless things
which you
were repeatedly told were marginal, deserving little note.”
“And
now recall how often those selfsame elements were your very life, a symbolic cypher
of
overpowering meaning and importance – how there was nothing negligible there,
nothing
to be narrowly dismissed or treated carelessly.
In
other words, it’s not marginal to those women.
It’s
not marginal to those who were planning to eat that.
It’s
not marginal to those that are caged inside, or to those now wholly
defined
by hundreds of pending and enterprise-driven legal entanglements.
It’s
not marginal to you or to me or to any three of our nearest neighbors.
Sound
travels best, we are told, through thick materials. A person hears better
underwater
than they do in air. And better still when swept under the scalding
runnels
of molten lava. And yet, are there not potentially legitimate reasons
as to
why we do not tend to meet and listen and love whilst trapped below
the
hard, fiery volcanic drubbing of an active eruption?
Distortion
is a versatile creature. It exists in any influence relationship,
in any
total institution. It doesn’t require a whip or even a lick of intuition
to
pick up that Stop & Frisk can act as a dispersal agent, not unlike tear gas,
producing
its own asthmatic conditions and crippling toxicities.
We
grew up just up the street.
We
grew up doubled up in our clamor to move up the ladder.
We
grew up upchucking in overdosed patterns.
We
grew up up up and then we splattered.
*This section title is drawn
from an essay on poetics by Gerard Manley Hopkins. Hopkins writes: “No doubt my
poetry errs on the side of oddness… Now it is the virtue of design, pattern, or
inscape to be distinctive and it is the vice of distinctiveness to become
queer. This vice I cannot have escaped.”
**A phrase uttered by activist
Malik Rahim (of the Louisiana-based community organization Common Ground) as he
describes the first organized refusal on the part of his New Orleans neighborhood
to yield to police violence in the 1970s.
the Tuesday poem is curated by rob mclennan
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